Finally, A New Year's Resolution

Getting divorced. I apologize for the lack of entries but the chaos of my life has kind of overwhelmed me for the last couple of months. That plus my kiddos tend to get sick a lot in the Dec, Jan, and Feb time of year. Kyla has been in the hospital every Feb of her life, will this year be her year? We shall see.

So the chaos. Things aren't all that pleasant and the kids are confused although I think they are getting used to the decline in arguing and fighting. It will take time but one thing I know is that I have very strong children and they will get through this. I love them and their father loves them and as long as they know that that won't change...

I turned 39 in January. Wow, less than 1 year from 40. Honestly I am looking forward to my forties. My thirties were difficult. It was a very long decade.

One thing I am learning from this divorce is that I may not be as trusting a person as I had originally thought I was. When Connor got sick I swore that I would NEVER be taken by surprise again; I would never have the rug pulled out from underneath me again. I will always be on my guard. I think that I must have unconsciously decided that would be me for all facets of my life and not just the medical lives of my children.

So, finally, one month and 7 days later I now have a New Year's Resolution- Relax more, trust more, and be happy. This would be a nice resolution to keep wouldn't it?
I hope I can do it.

Amy